It is hard for me to believe that Kaia has only been here 6 weeks. I truly can not remember a time before she got here. It always bothers me when people say that a baby will change your life. I don’t 100% agree with this statement. In my case, Kaia has truly enhanced my life, but I wouldn’t say she has changed it completely. My life was just fine without a child, but I always knew that something more was just waiting to happen. My entire life I have dreamed these moments that are now in existence. My dreams just remained frozen until they could be realized by her. I look at her an almost melt when I see her smile. It is something that I could have never imagined, but have always dreamed about.
In the short six weeks that she has been here, I have been on an emotional high. The depth of my love has been expanded to a whole new level. Kaia has awoken feelings and emotions I never knew I had. More than ever before, I have a greater love for God and deeper understanding for my parents.
Kaia ‘s birth has shown me the miracle of life. It is truly a humbling experience when you are present at the first breath of a new life. Somewhere between Adam and Eve and the big bang is the truth. That simple truth is that God Loves us and made us in his image. He has given us the ability to create life too, and no greater gift can be given. Understanding the full spectrum of this gift gives me a deeper perspective of Gods love for us. Just as I get all misty eyed over every little thing Kaia does, I imagine the heavens rejoice every time a lost soul finds its way home. The joy I get when Kaia smiles at me is the same Joy God must feel when we turn our eyes upon him as well…
I now also understand my parents pride and joy in seeing all of their children excel. Understanding the relationship between my earthly parents strengthens my relationship with my spiritual one. I don’t know that I would have completely understood these feelings unless Kaia was here. Having a child opens parts of your psyche that can not be measured by cognitive test. My mother and father have always shown me “unconditional love” beyond what I could comprehend at the time. As I said, these feelings have always existed inside me, but were just frozen in my dreams. As I picked up my mother from the airport the other night, I now completely understood the twinkle in her eye she has when she looks at me… I unfroze her dreams too…
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